On this journey of growth I am finding myself more and more enthralled with how amazing God is! On the flip side of that, I am finding myself more and more aware of how flawed and sinful I am! The first one sounds so much better than the second but in actuality they blend together beautifully as God draws me closer to Him. You see, in and of myself I can do nothing about my sin. On my own I am trapped in my sinful thoughts and desires. That's a very discouraging thought. It's the thought Satan often reminds me of, telling me I can't change or that I will always be a certain way. It's how the enemy keeps me from growing. It's only when I insert the presence and power of my amazing God that I find hope! This amazing God is the One who makes me aware of my sin, brings me to my knees in repentance and then gives the desire and the power to change. All the things that keep me from growing...discouragement, laziness, fear of man etc...when you place them up against the picture of my amazing God they suddenly begin to disappear!
The more God grows me, the more I love Him. And the more I love Him, the more I desire to grow! Jesus Himself linked the ideas of love and obedience together in John 14:21 when He said "Those who accept My commandments and obey them are the ones who love Me. And because they love Me, My Father will love them and reveal Myself to each of them." It's really an amazing concept to think about, It reminds me of Jason Gray's song More Like Falling in Love: "I need more than a truth to believe. I need a truth that lives, moves and breathes to sweep me off my feet. It's gotta be more like falling in love, than something to believe in. More like losing my heart, than giving my allegiance."
